It's 7:45pm, raining outside, and, bundled beneath a fuzzy blanket with my favourite pine-scented candle burning, I feel so extremely cozy inside. And inspired to write to you.
(Is it just me or does being tucked in make for the perfect writing ambiance for everyone? Curious what inspires you. Let me know on IG.)
So, my, where to begin... I consistently feel like I have so much to share with you guys because I write so infrequently these days on the ol' blog.
I guess I'll start with this: I'm back in N. America—the USA to be specific—after a long bout in Europe. And... it feels interesting. Not bad, but also not like I'm home.
For a long time, I've felt this kinship with the continent of Europe. I feel like, every time I'm there, I'm more myself. More free. More inspired. More in my flow.
A large part of me thinks this is because I came into myself while living in France/England/Italy. While another part of me thinks it's more simple than that: my soul is simply longing to be there.
This has shown up for me in so many ways, like (unintentionally) becoming closest with ex-pat Europeans while in Canada, and finding soul connections with Europeans via Instagram (and later meeting them in real life and feeling like, Wow, you see me. I feel at home in your presence.).
I share this as I think a lot of us are born in places that aren't necessarily fit for us for the long haul, and yet feel stuck there. Stuck because of perceived "obligations" to stay there. And we don't question these so-called obligations, which results in us leading lives wherein our souls are never fully at rest, never fully at home.
And this makes me so sad.
Because I understand so deeply what that feels like. It feels like, at least for me, consistently waiting for life to "start." Versus sinking into the present moment and digging our feet into the here and now.
My wish is for every human to feel like they're living their authentic life, and, to do that, it's vital we look inward at what we really want, and relinquish perceived "expectations" of what we "must" do. That's not to say it's easy. It's not. Because often that means changing dynamics with people in our lives, learning to create boundaries, and accepting that we aren't going to make everyone happy and that that is a-okay.
I mean, as far as we know, we only have this one life. So, it is our job to make ourselves, our souls, happy first. This isn't selfish. Rather, it is a vital step toward being selfless. Because, it is only when we are truly filled up, truly tapped in to our authentic nature, that we can unlock our gifts and use them to serve on the grandest level.
The byproducts of this are... innumerable. As we become self-actualized, we meet members of our soul family, simply by showing up as ourselves in the world. That is such a gorgeous piece of the journey. We also deepen the level of intimacy we have with ourselves. We expand our consciousness. And we tend to inspire others along the way to do the same, in their own unique ways.
So, all that fear of displeasing others? Of stepping outside of the box? It's worth it, I'd say.
But, hey, it's a work in progress to truly embody this notion of radical self-acceptance. And that's okay, too. To loop back, in the example of my life, I know I find that feeling of being at home while living in Europe, and yet, though come next Spring I'll have spent over 85% of my time in Europe, I'll still technically live in Canada. Because it's scary to make the full leap. But, in time, unless things drastically change, I will. I know I will because that's how this process goes.
You know you want to do a thing. You run from it. You can't. So, you accept it. You inch toward it, bit by bit. And then, one day, you just do it because it's harder not to than to do so.
At least, that's how it goes for me.
Now, back to you. What are you manifesting, loves? How is it going? I'm always curious. Truly. Let me know :)
PS. This is how I manifest in 3 steps:
- Listen to your intuition without judgement.
- Reflect on it through expression of any means (conversation, journaling, vision boarding, whatever).
- Act before logicking yourself out of it (aka letting fear take over).